Last Spring, after my husband and I broke up, I knew that soon I would have to set out on my own. I knew that the school district would be cutting their budget tighter and that it was going to get much harder to find a job that would allow me to pay the high rent for a Silicon Valley apartment. And I also knew that apartment life would mean giving up most of my animals and garden. To me this looked like doom. Barely able to pay rent and bills, barely time to see my kids, everything I loved would barely have a place in my life. My determination set in and I set out for an alternative plan. I got the wild idea to try to buy the 60 acres for sale next to my friends' land in the Mt Hamilton range south of Livermore. It was only $150,00 and came with a 3 bedroom mobile home and a barn. Unfortunately, an offer was put in and accepted before I could act. My friends who owned the nearby 103 acres spoke up and said I could live on their land and help them care for their non-profit spiritual retreat center for Bay Area Pagans. All I needed to do was find something to live in.
Here was my long-standing dream before my very eyes. I could live in their off-the-grid experiment in alternative/sustainable living and learn hands-on about everything I dreamt of doing in my life: permaculture, solar power, compost toilets, natural living! I was excited! And on the same land as two of my most trusted friends! I could homeschool my kids again, keep my chickens, and build myself a home that I could love. And I would be immersed in a spiritual community that was bending over backwards to take care of me in probably the most difficult time of my adult life. I could give back to them by being here, taking care of Stone City, and helping Shannon and Morpheus keep this place going and improving.
The short version of what happened next is that I bought a 5th wheel travel trailer that had seen better days for very cheap, and a propane fridge from an old hippie lady in Santa Cruz. I got a lot of help from Shannon and Jamie making the place livable. I left San Jose and am now getting settled in my new home. Some days my kids think I'm crazy and some days they are having the time of their lives. We swim in the pond, picnic under a geodesic dome climbing structure, make dinner by candlelight, and get very very dirty.
Now, why am I blogging about this? Because I know my family is questioning my decisions. Because I know that I have friends who either think I am crazy or wonder what I do all day up here. Because someone is worried about my kids. Because someone wants to live vicariously through me. Because I am a Pagan single mama with wild dreams and a great love of adventure that very few people can keep up with. Because a few people have told me that they like to read what I write.
So, welcome to my blog about this crazy life. Ask questions if you have them. Show support if you are able. Be respectful because it's the right way to be.